Hm. I feel miserable. Everyone around me is dying. I feel like I'm dying too. My whole life has been taken over by a sense of fear of death. I feel alone. I want to die but I want stay alive yet. I'm bemused. I don't know what I have to do. It sucks. Maybe it's my fault. This year is the worst of my life. I got a problem, it's plain to see. What am I now? What do I have to do? Why can't this pain go away? I don't understand. It's all gone.

By the way I don't like to take photo I think I quit for now. Bye. ○○